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| ive had a couple of dreams recently where ive been naked in front of clothed people and they were kinda fun! i think im past the stage now where that type of thing could freak me out (cool).
i cant remember the first one, but in the second one, some people had come round to the house and i was naked around them and it was all cool. i dont know who the people were, they were just strangers who were at the house but they were totally not caring that i was nekkid, so that was cool. then some other people, who i also didnt know, came round and for sum reason i decided it wasnt okay to be naked in front of those people so i went up to get dressed. weird, huh?
its been so totally gorgeous weather at the moment, hot and sunny. ive actually not been nude much, cuz if i wanted to be id have to stay in my room, which is hot and stuffy. so ive been hanging round the house in my bikini or my long teeshirt, which has been pretty cool in itself cuz last year i would never have been able to do that. but so long i keep my boobs and my bits covered up, they cant complain at me.
it would still be nice to be nude but this is better than nothing. and yesterday i did take my teeshirt off when i was out in the garden and there was no-one else about, but not for very long cuz i didnt wanna screw up and lose the privliges i already have by getting caught naked out in the yard. it still felt awesome tho! | | |
| well its been an interestin last few days!
until now i wouldve thought that one of the last things that was gonna happen in my life would be me and mum and dad sitting down and having a reasonabel, mature, open talk about nudism and nudity.
a bit of background in case you dont already know. ive always thought my parents are not open minded when it comes to nudity. they are definitely uptight about it and also a little bit prudish. ive never seen dad naked and i havent seen mum naked since we stopped going swimming together when i was 12. since i was a little kid ive always been made to feel that nudity is private and forbidden. since i first started on this road knowing that i liked being without clothes, mum and dad have made it known to me that those feeling were wrong and that there were some parts of my body that should only ever be seen by my doctor and my future husband. when i was 11 and first experimenting with nudity in a more grown up way (as a way of living instead of just whipping my clothes off when i was playing) mum caught me out so many times that in the end she threatend to put me in therapy to get rid of my "weird urges".* when she came into my room unexpectedley a few months back and found me sitting on my bed in the nude, she was really shocked that i was acting like it was "totally normal" (i didnt say that for me it was, tho i probly shouldve!).
so i never really planned to tell them that i think of myself as a nudist, or that when they go out i tend to take my clothes off. i was sure it would only lead to grief.
anyway. good friday. dads talking about doing some stuff in the garden and one of the things he says he might do is put some trelis on the top of the fence and grow some stuff up it which will make the garden more private (good news for lil'naked me by itself!), and mum makes a joke and says shed be able to sunbathe topless! now this is pretty unusual, mum not only mentioning nudity, but mentioning it without saying how imoral it is! she did reply to dad that shed never actually do it, but i was still so surprised i ended up saying something myself, something like, hey yeah and i can sunbathe nude.
mum and dad went quiet then dad said "are you serious?" this was the moment for me. i couldve just gone "nah, course not!" and that wouldve been the end of it... but sumthin stopped me. like ive said recently maybe im just more confident these days.
so i said "what if i was serious? whats wrong with that?". and mum said, "what is it with you and taking your clothes off?" (either she was still remembering cathcing me a couple months ago or i havent been as good at hiding what ive been up to as i thought).
"well..." im sure i mustve been turning red by now, but i tried to sound as cool as poss and said those words i was sure i would never end up saying "i think im a naturist."
and they didnt hit the roof. they didnt get mad. they didnt bawl me out and send me into therapy. we talked. they talked. I talked a lot. i talked about how id been going nude when they were out, i talked about why i was doing that,about what naturism was, what it meant and why i liked it. they asked a LOT of questions, and i did my best to answer them as honestly as i could. it was kinda scary sitting there at the kitchen table and tellign my biggest secret to the people i thought would never get it, but at the same time it was kinda a relief to get it out in the open.
and they didnt really get it. mum especially kept asking the same questions, including one i couldnt answer ("so whats wrong with wearing clothes?" - i dont think there is anything wrong, i just prefer not to sometimes, but that didnt seem to be the anser she was looking for). i didnt exactly win them over, they werent that happy with everything i was telling them (especialy when i said about going in the garden nude, mum was terified the neibours might have seen me!). but like i said, at least we were talking about it and they were treating me like an adult and even if they thought i was wrong for feeling th way i did, they werent telling me i was wrong.
so i havent got their aproval, but i think they do accept it as something im about. i was trying real hard to get permission to live clothing optional but really i dont think there was a chance of that.
we did agree on a compromise though. mum and dad couldnt see anything wrong with me wearing whatever i liked, including nothing at all, when i was in my bedroom. so basically i have permission to go nude in my room, which means i can surf the net nude, play videogames nude, draw nude, read books nude, watch tv nude and study nude (good as end of year exams arent that far away). if i want to go into the rest of the house then mum and dad want me to cover up and i can respect that (theyre never gonna be comftable with my nudity and they might come down hard on me if i dont follow their rules).
we did agree though that if im just nipping to the bathroom (which is just down the hall from my room) its a bit pointless for me to put something on, so then its okay for me to stay nude. but if im going downstairs, or coming to watch tv or eat dinner, i have to put something on. mum and dad did agree that i didn't have to be fully dressed, just covered, so ive been able to just wear a long tshirt and thats been fine as it covers everything my parents are frightened of seeing!
mum and dad also accepted that they cant stop me being nude in the house when they arent there, so mum just said to keep it private and be careful, which i am anyway.
if anyone other than them is in the house though (their friends or mine) i have to appear fully dressed though, but i dont think thats gonna be a problem as i dont wanna broadcast that im a naturist to the world just yet.
i know to some people it might seem like im not being true to myself by acepting the rules my parents have asked for, but really, im just relived that i was able to talk about it with them in a way that didnt get me grief, not only that but that ive gone some way towards having clothing freedom in my house, even if it is just my room for now. it means i dont have to panic rush and cover up when i think someones coming and if im nude when their out and they come home suddenly it wont be an issue if im nude in another part of the house, so long as after ive said "hi how was your day?" i go upstairs and put that long tshirt on!
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| casual nudity.
i love the term "casual nudity". i think its awesome - the idea that nudity can be no big deal, that its just totally normal and relaxed and comfy and, well... casual, i guess. not having to be naked, not haveing to wear clothes either, it just being totally normal to wear whatever and as little as you want. such a great meaning for two little words together.
ive been more casual about my nudity lately. not really brave, but now quite often if im in my room and i feel like undressing i will, wether mum and dad are home or not. i used to worry that they might want to come in and that id get into trouble, but now i dont care so much. i mean its my room, its private, i can lie on my bed naked or sit at my computer naked if i want to!
so thats progress, i guess im more confident about nudity and my body now than i was 6 months ago. i pretty much like the way i look now, with or without clothes on, which is helping me more in loads of other perts of my life. becky said the other day she thought i was more confident and shes right i think!
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| Nudity and sex
I don’t understand why people think that all nudity automatically equals sex. Actually, I understand why they think that, I mean, you’re naked when you have sex and society and media made people always link the two because nudity is usually only in thinks to be sexy. But I just don’t get how it can be. I mean, I know that I can be casually and comfortably naked without it being sexual at all. I like being naked for lots of reasons, but none of them are sexual. I like it because it feels free and relaxing and comfy and natural, because it makes me feel closer to nature, because I feel more like myself with nothing hidden, because I am actually getting to think I look better naked than with clothes on, because nude bodies are beautiful.
But I don’t do it for sexual reasons. If I come home from school and take all my clothes off, its not because it’s a big turn on. I mean, I’ll admit theres sometimes a rush, but that’s for me more if its colder than I thought, and also if ive been used to the feel of my clothes on me all day then it’s a bit of a shock to feel so free so quickly. But that’s not a sexual feeling, it’s like meditating or something, when my clothes come off theres that first rush, yeah, then I go all sort of calm and relaxed and it just feels nice (my English teacher says I shouldn’t use the word nice to describe things, but that’s the best way to say it for me, it just feels nice to be naked). Not sexual at all.
Im not anti-sex, not at all. Its sorta needed for us to have babies and stuff, and I’m sure that one day I’m going to be having sex and im sure enjoying it a heck of a lot! But that’s not related to why I go naked. I mean, I’ll even admit that ive had sexual thoughts at times when ive been nude in the house and, yeah, even been turned on! But that’s been coz of what ive been thinking about or what ive seen, not coz ive been naked. Ive had the same thoughts and the same effects when ive been fully dressed, or wearing a towel, or half-dressed, but no-one’s claiming towels, or clothes, are sexual. So why should not wearing clothes be sexual? I had a sexy thought on the bus from town the other day – does that mean buses are sexual?
I wish people would just get over it and except that its possible for a girl (or a guy) to enjoy going casually nude for totally non-sexual reasons,instead of imagining naturism as one big orgy or sumthin.
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| i havent done anything naturist for a little while... today im off school and its the first time ive been casualy naked at home for ages. ive been too busy and its been far too cold, ive been naked a bit here and there and im still sleeping nude but other than that its been kinda quiet on that front.
anyway, its nice being sat here naked now, im reminded of what a good feeling it is. think i'll stay this way until i absoultely have to get dressed when parents come home later. | | |
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